My car was stolen.
I'm moving back to America on April 4th.
I no longer like Diet Coke.
I'm moving back to America on April 4th.
I no longer like Diet Coke.
Think you spotted the lie?
My car is gone. I've already paid all of the rest of my money to the car company, and so that one is (sadly) fact.
And as a die hard Diet Coke addict (til cancer death do us part), that leaves us with some news that causes mixed emotions within me.
I am sad.
Devastatingly sad. I am leaving people I love, potential I was eagerly anticipating, a ministry that I am invested in, high schoolers that I was just getting to really know... I am SAD about closing this chapter of my life.
And as a die hard Diet Coke addict (til cancer death do us part), that leaves us with some news that causes mixed emotions within me.
I am sad.
Devastatingly sad. I am leaving people I love, potential I was eagerly anticipating, a ministry that I am invested in, high schoolers that I was just getting to really know... I am SAD about closing this chapter of my life.
I am anxious.
Only-sleeping-2-to-3-hours-per-night anxious. Elevated blood pressure anxious. Making myself sick anxious. I have no idea what I am going to do when I move home. I don't know if I am a failure or if I am an idiot or if I am brave. I don't know how I'm going to provide for myself, whether my friendships here can last when I'm home, or if my friends back home will still have room for me in their lives. And I hate to fly. So I'm anxious.
Only-sleeping-2-to-3-hours-per-night anxious. Elevated blood pressure anxious. Making myself sick anxious. I have no idea what I am going to do when I move home. I don't know if I am a failure or if I am an idiot or if I am brave. I don't know how I'm going to provide for myself, whether my friendships here can last when I'm home, or if my friends back home will still have room for me in their lives. And I hate to fly. So I'm anxious.
I am excited.
Giggling to myself excited. I get to go to Leana's wedding. There will be AIR CONDITIONING. My family will be around, and GOSH have I missed them! I can go on walks without worrying about getting mugged, nobody steals your car.... everyone speaks my language and I am just...understood. I really am looking forward to being home.
Giggling to myself excited. I get to go to Leana's wedding. There will be AIR CONDITIONING. My family will be around, and GOSH have I missed them! I can go on walks without worrying about getting mugged, nobody steals your car.... everyone speaks my language and I am just...understood. I really am looking forward to being home.
But I know that it won't be the same, because I know that I've changed. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I know that it is not going to be what I once expected. My view of the world and of my position in it has been radically changed in the past year. And I truly look forward to seeing where that takes me in the year to come!